Spinning

We just had the most emotional 24 hours of our lives. Where to start......

2 weeks ago, we find out we are pregnant! We are so excited. This is something we have been praying about since we got married. I'll get to that later.

2 days ago, I'm thinking something could be wrong. (the only reason you would think this in early pregnancy is ______)

Yesterday, not being able to be seen right away at the doctor, I went to the emergency room.

I had an ultrasound.

I was told that I have a 'blighted ovum'. definition? everything about my body is pregnant, but the sac is empty. There is no baby. They give me a number to call to have the procedure done today so that my pregnancy symptoms will diminish.

I call in sick, Robert calls in sick, the kids are at their Dad's, and we spend time together...in disappointment, in disbelief, in prayer, and then, in hope.

After a long discussion, we decide against the procedure. We wanted to let things happen naturally, and in the meantime, as Robert said, 'pray for a miracle'. I could still 'feel' pregnant for up to a month or longer, but we decided that I would continue to treat my body as if I were pregnant, and just pray. So we did.

Today I call to cancel the appointment. They suggested I come in anyway, and have an exam by a regular obstetrician.

In the meantime, I was calm all along. What was meant to be was going to be, and it was out of my control. Disappointed? Of course. But I just wasn't convinced that this was where this was meant to end.

I go to the doctor, I get ready for another ultrasound, and within moments, the technician was showing me our baby! And a heartbeat!

YES! That's what I said!

We ARE in the midst of a healthy, happy, amazing gift from God!!

We will welcome our baby in to the world in March, 2010.

God answers Prayer.